I always scoffed at the people who stated the cliche': having kids will change everything. I used to take that comment with a negative tone, but now that I have a precious little babe of my own, I now know that it's said from an overwhelmingly positive place in the heart. So below are a few things that have changed since I had a baby:
#1 - I don't want to die.
Ahem...Let me explain. Emerson and I watched "Life as We Know It" on Saturday, and it hit us both really hard. (It's the movie where the parents of a 9 month old baby die, and they leave their little girl to their two best friends: Josh Duhamel (SMOKIN'!! btw) and Katherine Heigl). This next statement will sound rather morbid; but before I had kids, I never really cared if I died. Ok ok, I guess what I mean is, I would be okay up in heaven enjoying the clouds, music, and caramel brulee lattes, looking down on my loved ones, etc.
But now, I have this overwhelming feeling that I have to be here to watch Kingston grow up, to be there for him, because he needs his own Mommy and Daddy! Nobody can love him like we do!
#2 - Songs mean more.
This is another kind of morbid example, and maybe my head isn't quite right, or maybe it's just the lack of sleep! Anywho, a few years ago a friend of mine died of an accidental death at the age of 22. Yes, it was very very sad, even at the time. At her funeral, her family did a little photo/video montage to the following song; (this is the song, not the video obviously).
I heard this song come on Toddler Radio via Pandora.com yesterday and I just started bawling. I completely lost it. I just kept thinking of that poor girl's parents and how they lost their little child. It hit me on a whole new level. Before, I always just thought about how sad it was that her life was cut short, I never even thought about how it must've killed her parents.
#3 - Ok, on to the lighter ways that babies change things...
Finding time and a sitter to get your eyebrows waxed is a HUGE deal. It's been way too long!
My husband and I actually have stuff to talk about at our once a year 'date night'...
We watch a lot less TV!
I barely shop for my self anymore! But I buy a ton of stuff for Kingston.
Sleep deprivation makes life really silly!
Oh my gosh with the song thing - I cry at everything now! Commercials, youtube videos, while reading magazines, it's ridiculous. And i realllllly don't want to die either and I totally could care before.
ReplyDeleteLove you <3
PS! I should mention that I don't want you to die either! But if you did we would be here to take the most amazing care of Kingston ever, just like our own son (which is how much I love him) <3 God forbid, but I felt like I should say it.
ReplyDeletei can totally relate to your 'i don't wanna die' statement... i went through a phase when it kinda freaked me out cause i would stress about it! i'm better now... but it still is so different now with babies!
ReplyDeleteI totally agree!
ReplyDeleteAnd with the shopping, I feel like my clothes are always 3 years old instead of 3 months old, haha. I desperately need to find sitters so I can go shopping without kids and ACTUALLY shop for myself!!!
I can't imagine ever being without my babies either, if it was me or them that die. The thought is unthinkable!