Thursday, May 31, 2012

Psalm 107:19-21 Then they cried to the Lord in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress; he sent out his word and healed them, and delivered them from destruction. Let them thank the Lord for his steadfast love, for his wonderful works to humankind.


I'm writing this down not to document this event, because who wants to remember a week like this past one, but more as therapy for myself so that I can finally let go and let God have back control to take care of my family.  

I will forever call this past week, 'this is my nightmare'.  Although this quote comes from the hilarious movie 'I Love You, Man', a saying that Em and I quote often, I was not laughing while I kept repeating this to myself; reveling in the irony of it all.  I will never take my children, or anything else for that matter, for granted ever again.  It's hard to be the same person after watching your baby stop breathing and being taken away in an adult size gurney.  That mental snapshot will be burned in my retinas forever.  And to think, that was only the start of this never-ending nightmare.

We got to the hospital after what seemed like an hour long ride, only for them to diagnose my sweet little five month old with a simple ear infection, and a febrile seizure from his high grade fever.  They released us only three hours after arriving with some oral antibiotic saying that he would be fine.  So we continued on our way to Denver later that day excited to celebrate the marriage of our dear friends.

After arriving in Denver, we received a call from the hospital in Gilbert telling us to get to a hospital ASAP to get more tests done on Kace because his blood culture came back positive for bacteria.  We left Kingston in a strange place with some close friends, and rushed Kace into the car headed for the nearest hospital.  Because I have my medical degree from google.com, I, of course, immediately look up bacteremia....That was a mistake.  'Sepsis can be treated with antibiotics, particularly if it's caught early, but even then, it can be lethal.'  I read this sentence and immediately put down my smart phone and vowed to not look at it again...not ever. 

We ended up at the Denver Children's Hospital.  Pulling up to the emergency room, I see "#5 Ranked Children's Hospital in the United States"; praise the Lord.  The fantastic doctors calmly told us that they needed to run a gamut of tests, including a CT scan, spinal tap/lumbar puncture, and another blood culture to rule out a brain mass, spinal meningitis, and to rerun the bacterial culture.  None of which would have been a positive diagnosis.  They also looked at his ears---no ear infection.  I held down my rage for the Gilbert hospital, only to keep focused on getting Kace healthy, because I cannot change the past and I needed to invoke change on the future.  

After seven days (72 hours of which without sleep) of IV antibiotics, spiked fevers, uncontrollable crying (by me and Kace), a flight in by my own Mommy (thank you Lord for my dear mother for always being there for me on a moments notice), a still unclear cause of both the seizure and bacteremia, a pretty intense lovers quarrel regarding chapstick, 1000 repetitions of "The Wheels on the Bus", and a break-up with our pediatrician, it seems we are now on the upswing of this whole endeavor.

I now check Kace for a fever about every minute, and probably will continue doing that until he's married and I can ask his wife to do it for me.  I'm still coming down from the entire adrenaline rush of the last seven days, but I feel incredibly lucky to be home with my boys and seemingly on the other side of this whole thing. I thank God everyday for the health of both of my babies and my family.  

Below are some pictures from the weekend...including Kingston as a ring bearer (cutest ring bearer EVER!) He did an amazing job walking down the aisle, he had to be bribed by a sucker of course.  Oh yea, and he fell in love with a little girl named Elena.

 A picture from today...One of the first times that he let me set him down for more than three minutes without crying.

 Kingston with his girlfriend, Elena...Melted my heart.

 The Ring Bearer...

 The Ring Bearer...His shirt was too short, haha...



 Kingston playing outside of the hospital.  Poor little guy had no idea what was going on.  It broke my heart to have to leave him, but all of our friends and family helped make him comfortable.  He definitely was not lacking in attention or love without his mommy or daddy!

 Elmo balloon solves all problems.

 This dinosaur from our friends Lauren and Jon really helped Kace and Kingston feel better.



 Auntie M came to the rescue...

 Poor sick buddy...



 The wagon provided a little entertainment at the hospital...

 His little IV. 


With Auntie Danielle before the week started...












Monday, May 21, 2012

Kingstonisms

Kingston truly cracks me up every single day...I wanted to document some of the funny things he is saying and doing these days.

Singing his ABC's...(see video)Alphabet Song According to Kingston
-Ah Ah Ah Ah P...Translation - L M N O P...

When asked, "What do you do with a shovel Kingston?"  Answer - "pit a poo" (translation- Pick up poop, haha).

When we get home and drive in to the garage, Kingston says in a very singsongy voice, "Weeeeeeee're HOOOOOOOOOOOME!".

He absolutely loves the song, Itsy Bitsy Spider.  He gets so excited for the "washed the spider out" part, that he always screams it and makes the most obnoxious hand motions one line early.

Blowing bubbles in his milk is the cool new thing...



Ring Bearer practice...





Monday, May 14, 2012

Some pics as of late...

Such a sweet little sleeper! 


Hanging at the San Tan play pad... 


He's such an easy happy baby! 


On Daddy's birthday...Now Kingston still says 'Happy Birthday Daddy', even though it was two weeks ago. 


Kingston trying to play with others: Running up to them, getting inches from the face, and laughing loudly like an evil villain...Hilarious to me, scary to young children.  I promise I didn't teach him this! 


Tummy time... 


My sweet baby at his cardiology check-up appointment.  Our prayers were answered once again, Kace is COMPLETELY 100% healthy.  No issues!  PHEW!

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Kace Emerson - 4 months

Kace Emerson - 

I can't believe he is already 4 months old.  Time has just flown by; I feel like I just found out I was pregnant yesterday.  And here he is, smiling, and laughing, and cooing, and rolling over.  He is honestly such a happy and super-easy going baby.  He loves his brother the most though!  Nobody can get him to laugh like Kingston can.  He'll laugh even when Kingston is trying to lay on top of him, or take away his paci, or lay in the same bouncy chair causing it to collapse on both of them.

Kingston has turned into quite the big brother.  He's sharing his mama much easier these days, and truly loves his little brother.  It melts my heart, and I hope they grow up to be the bestest of friends.

My work has slowed down now that our competition season is over, and I finally get to spend some much needed time at home to reconnect with my babies.  Honestly, could they be any cuter...

Kace's 4 Month Stats:
15lbs 14oz - 75th percentile
27 1/2 inches - off the charts!!






 I love this pic of his chubbiness in all it's glory...


New haircut...Which, if you ask him, was the most traumatic thing that has ever happened to him.


video
Trying to catch my little guy giggling...

2012 Update!

- Easter 2012 - 

Making faces at Nana...

 Easter Egg Hunt...He had to eat the eggs as he found them.  Wouldn't have it any other way.


 Hammock with Papa...

 Trying to get a family pic is always a process...

 Papa and Kace... (3 months old)

 Wait...You're taking a picture??

 All smiles...What a happy baby!


Such a brut!!




 Kace (2 months old)

Napping with Grandpa...So comfy!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Whoa! So much has changed in 10 months...

Well...and Baby Kace makes FOUR for the Ward Family!

We are just so in love with our new addition. It sounds awful, but I was a little concerned when I was pregnant that I wouldn't love this new baby as much as I love and adore Kingston. But the second he was born, my heart literally grew three sizes, and I fell madly head over heels for this little guy. I even said it out loud to the nurse...I said, "Oh My Gosh! I do love him!". Who can say what that nurse now thinks of me, ha!

I did bawl my eyes out on the way out of the hospital because Kingston was screaming and crying for his Mama as I was wheel chaired out with Kace on my lap. He just wanted to sit with me. I felt sad that he now had to share his Mommy with someone else. But we are adjusting pretty well to life with two little ones. Kingston now loves to give his 'Baby Bo' kisses and hugs. It just melts me.

I wrote out Kace's birth story in a blurb book in case you'd like a boring read...it's posted to the right. I promise to not wait another 10 months to do a post...

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

March

Kingston is officially crawling! Hooray for him, exhausting for everybody else. His favorite place to crawl to is the dog bowls. I have no idea why, but he thinks it's absolutely hilarious when I stop him from knocking over the water bowls. He'll lay down right there and just chuckle...It's friggin' adorable.

Here are a few pics from the last month or so...

The cousins playing/being territorial over their toys...

New BIG BOY car seat!

What he does during nap time now...

Lovin' on NANA...

MY NANA!!!!

Their Love/Hate relationship...



Showing off his 'teefers'...

Doing dishes with Daddy...(I teach 'em young)

Before bedtime ritual...Stand at the stairs and wait for Daddy!

Finger Foods are FUN!!!


Living on the dangerous side...

Playing with his girlfriends...Notice how he's not playing with the 'girl' toys, and he's headed straight for the pile of rocks and sticks. Oh Daddy will be so proud.